My baby asked me to blog about Clash of Clans. Well honestly, I can’t remember when I started it or how I started it. All I remember is that I was playing a zombie game during August 2012 because I was bored at home waiting for darling. And one of the in-app ads was the clash of clans. I played the ad because I wanted to get free game money for that zombie game. And here it came, appealed me. I was easily hooked into it because it is very easy to pick up and play game. The upgrading and training time is so long that I could probably play 4-5 fights per day.
Admittedly, I was kinda wasting my time into it a lot… but yea… it was fun ! So I kept giving it a go. I spent a bit of money into it too… And well, it is boring to talk about it more than I actually play it ! So baby, watch me ! hahaha
So… I have decided to take my path, my destiny, toward medical study.
This could be a lengthy but breathtaking process. I would follow a dream that I thought it was dying off. I will give it all I have to achieve it…
So GAMSAT 2013, here I come !
Today marks the first day of my journey to a long lost dream !
Our 2nd anniversary at Eureka81. It was always a perfect day with you beside me.
Two year and not a single regret. You made me the person I want to be, the man who loves you, cherish you and know you. Day goes by and I find it is harder for me to say love you because no L.O.V.E could describe how much and deeply I love you, adore you and treasure you. I love every moment with you, happy or sad, I enjoy it, immerser myself into it and wish that it will never end.
Somebody loves you if they don’t mind the quiet. They don’t mind running errands with you or cleaning your apartment while blasting some annoying music. There’s no pressure, no need to fill the silences. You know how with some of your friends there needs to be some sort of activity for you to hang out? You don’t feel comfortable just shooting the shit and watching bad reality TV with them. You need something that will keep the both of you busy to ensure there won’t be a void. That’s not love. That’s “Hey babe! I like you okay. Do you wanna grab lunch? I think we have enough to talk about to fill two hours!” It’s a damn dream when you find someone you can do nothing with. Whether you’re skydiving together or sitting at home and doing different things, it’s always comfortable. That is fucking love.
You are teachable.
You can learn how to take photos. You can learn how to play songs on the acoustic guitar. You can learn how to make that five layer cake and it will taste like heaven in your mouth. You can learn how to draw much more than stick figures. You can learn how to drive stick shift. You can learn how to write anything. Your words don’t have a limit. Your mind doesn’t have a lock. You are teachable. You can still learn. You can learn and understand all the things you want to if you will do one very important thing.
Try. Try more than once. Try with patience. Try with freedom. Try with gentleness. Try with faith. Try with curiosity. Try and make those mistakes you dread so much. Mistakes are stepping stones love not potholes.
It’s okay to mess up. It’s okay to fail and fail and FAIL. It’s okay to suck. It’s okay to take longer than others to figure out how it works. It’s okay to ask for help. It’s okay to change it to suit your way of learning. It’s okay to stumble, and fall. It’s okay to be scared. It’s okay to be nervous. It’s okay to feel what you feel when you stand before the unknown and the uncertainty creeps in. Trial and error my dear are some of life’s greatest teachers.
You can still learn things. You can still walk down new paths. You could even build one if need be.
You don’t have forever but you do have today. And today is as good as any day to start learning about what you are passionate and curious about. Today is a day you could nourish a dream, heal a scar, express a hope, build a door of possibility…
You are teachable. You can still learn things. Try…
And as you try and learn let others know they are teachable too.
~~Acoustic Imagery~~ (via bealightinthedark)
I hope this is just a nightmare… I hope I wake up and realise that you are still there with me. The fact is, I love you. And all out of this, I think I am stupid. Everything is a small matter, why didn’t I act differently? If I have a choice to do it again, it will never be the way I did… Haix… What have gone wrong with me… Seriously…
Yesterday I felt your love with all of its colour, that nothing could ever pull you away from me. Today u say you can’t commit. I feel an intense bitterness in me. What is love without commitment? You once said whenever you do something, you will commit to it, devote your heart to it. Why not this relationship? What do I mean to you? Who am I? Well I just know I am a man who loves you madly, stupidly but I hold no regret of loving you.
I miss you already….
So this is how it begins…. The downfall.
I had the worst 3 days of the weeks ever. Waking up on Monday with bad headache, stacking up work. Tuesday rushing for meeting. Then boom. The fuse of the EM camera is gone! Why? Why had to be that day?
Oh well, tell you, whatever I plan will never work. I can feel it. I can feel the urgh and frustration as it happens and you just feel helpless and pathetic for yourself. The fuse was blown up on the day I planned to get all the work done before our trip back home. So that means no work can be done. What can be worse?
Oh well, I started my Wednesday with a long waiting for that fuse to be fixed. Yup, it is fixed mid day! I had merely 6 hours left to get all things done. How do you feel when all ur deadlines are so close… I just done feel it right to be home this time. And this was how things fell apart.
You were upset of me. I’m sorry. I admit I am your worst bf, insensitive, careless, non romantic and clumpsy. There are so many things you dont like about me. I have nothing I don’t like about you. The fact is, you are so good to be true to me. So my worst nightmare but also my sweetest dream is to both losing you and loving you.
I love you. If you could know that I wanted to be home with you today… Oh wells, next time then… If there is next time… You know I will do everything for you, everything, the least you need to do is ask because certain times I will initiate.
I know nothing can be undone. I wish I could have made different decisions. One play fell then stick with next one, not trying to fix that fallen plan… I wish this and that but still… I upset you. You know most of the time I will never tell you my problems. But loads of problems I tried to fix… But fixing ones gives rise to another, so why fix…?
Haiz… God is fucking playing games with me or because I’m punished for not praying to god? Who knows! So many things just fall right into me, every single time. Why me? What happened? I am lost…
Love you always…
For you … love you